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Friday, May 05, 2006
It is particularly sad, frustrating and upsetting to have euphemism of a similar nature thrown right at your face, not once, but TWICE, in a matter of 3 days. It sucks real bad when you know u deserve the grade, but u end up with a lower grade. It hurts even more when the fact that you deserve a better grade comes not from you but your Professor.
Euphemistic email 1:
Hi,
After very carefully considering all the grades, grade weightage and structure across both sessions I have decided to keep your grade as is. A lot of other students are in the same situation. However, I had to differentiate between the A's and A+' s. Those who actually ended up with an A+ are the ones who performed better in both exams than you did (Their exam average is 89 - 93, compared to yours which is 85 and they also had slightly higher project grades). Your overall average actually is 84.40. Even if I give you an extra point and make it an 85 that still is within the A range.
Anyway, you still have a well-deserved excellent grade and I always consider you among the best of my students academically. -->If A+ is the best grade possible, and I'm among the best, shouldn't I get my A+??
All the best, keep in touch.
It hurts not because I asked for the review,but because you said that you were considering pushing me up. It was a case of giving me hope, and then cruelly sending me back down to ground state. Well-deserved excellent grade? U mean I deserve only an A?I can't believe it when you yourself said that I was an A+ student.
Euphemistic mail 2:
Hi ,
I know you would ask this question as I payed extra attention when assigning your grade. Your mid-term (32.5) and final (33) papers are above the class averages, which are 30.5 and 31.5, respectively, which put you around B+ but with a chance of getting an A-. You receive 9/8/7/8 for your case studies and presentation, which is below the class average of 34.8. I know you have put in a lot of efforts in group assignments, but they are the collective performance of the group. Somehow your group do not work hard enough compared to other groups. I hope you're not discouraged by your grade from this course. With your persistence, I am sure you would do well in your pursuit.
Take care
This is one bloody heavy price to pay for this lesson: Never work with people whom are not tested.WHy? You really are venturing into unknown waters here and it's your grades that are at stake here. Not theirs. WHy? Cos they simply suck anyway, evident from test sscores. This bloody thing cost me my place in the Dean's List. U all damn good. U all make me die. For u all, it doesnt matter cos the tests are going to kill you all anyway. But I am different ya.
In this case, why did the Prof end up divulging a lot more info that I asked for? Did she say it to make me feel better? Or was it really the truth and nothing but the truth? Well, I dunno. The truth really cuts. U hope that I won't be discouraged? U are sure that with my persistence I'd do well? What makes u so sure that I won't simply breakdown and give up everything? I aint as strong as I appear/what you think I am.
Honestly, what I want are not these nice-worded emails. What matters to me are only the grades. Nothing else matters. To hell with the rest. I want to move on. But the moment the realiszation that the consequences are going to stick with me for a long time,I can't help but feel the anger, sadness and pain. I want to move on,but it simply hurts too much to know that I am going to have to pay for this somewhat. In terms of career prospects, in terms of self-esteem. I think it'll have done my ego a lot of good if she didnt tell me all the other stuff. U wanted to make me feel better, but you just pushed me into a neverending abyss of darkness.
*| 3:27 AM |*
