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Tuesday, April 27, 2004
Yoz. I bloody hell stink like mad now. Smelling of ammonia now... but then, I think it is a price that is worth paying cos after 2 days I get something really beautiful. Not going to tell what that exactly is but for those who have done it before I guess you'd more or less be able to guess what I mean! Wootz.
People are willing to pay so much and undergo so much pain just to look BEAUTIFUL. Beauty is what man has been seeking since the beginning of civilisation. But to what extent is man willing to go to in the quest for beauty? Some are willing to risk their lives to undergo liposuction etc etc. Is it worth it? Hmmm if I need to pay only about $200 it is quite ok. But to endanger my life..I had better think twice. Heh and I'd most likely choose the least painful method if there were a choice cos my threshold for pain is very very low. heehee
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Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Hello!!! It's a fine day today so yes, I am going to OCC for a nice swim. I chose a weekday because it will not be so crowded and I can easily keep to my lane, like what people do when they are driving.. speaking of driving, I just signed up for my practical exam. It is the final lap! It's either a make or break thing, so yeah I am fervently hoping that I'd pass. :) I really want to get my license so I can zip around in my car. To make things straight, there are some people who'd I'd never ferry. 1) People who CLAIM that I have betrayed them 2) People whom I despise 3) Suckers and Losers 4) People who deserve to be condemned for eternity in a dark abyss. Yes. Those are simple ground rules. If u wanna get on my car, u'd better make sure that you do not satisfy any of that criteria. Otherwise, shoo! I cannot be bothered to be ur chauffeur. Why shld I ? Among all those 4 types of people I mentioned, I particularly dislike losers and suckers [ I am sure you know who you are if u are still reading my blog. If you are getta fu** outta here too cos u are none in the least welcome. Losers merely tarnish my beautiful blog. It is SACRED so u had better not tarinish this sacred sanctity.] Yes and I hate to live with losers. Losers. I simply despise them. They should remain what they are-LOSERS forever.
*| 10:00 PM |*
Sunday, April 18, 2004
Sigh it has been sooo hot these days that I am starting to find it unbearable. I wonder what is with the weather these days. A couple of weeks ago there were flash floods and now, there isn't a single drop of rain. Has all these got to do with global warmiing and what not?If yes, then we are facing an impending apocalypse. Man I am really dying from the heat!!!! :(
I got this email saying that there is RJC ORA walkathon on 9 May. It will be held at the Mt Sinai campus and yes, I guess that it will be the last that we'll see from that campus cos RJC is moving at the end of this year. heh if I were born 2 years later I would have been able to enjoy the spanking new compound? I dont really feel like going cos, I dont really feel as though I beling there.Just like a fish out of water. Man, I really feel so inferior.Everyone is so clever but I am not. :( All those people getting straight As. Felt like an outcast when I went back there the last time. None in the least welcome. Why shld I go to a place with people who dont welcome me?
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Thursday, April 15, 2004
Have been reading this book White Oleander. As you all might know, it was made into a movie recently, starring Alison Lohman as Astrid and Michelle Pfeiffer as Ingrid, Astrid's mother. Ingrid's mother is an exceptional beauty. But beneath the beauty lies a coldness and poison. Just like a white oleander. Ingrid is a single mother who singlehandedly took care of Astrid for a good part of her life before being sentenced to a maximum security jail for 30yrs for killing her lover, Barry Kolker. I havent read much of the book. But I cant help but pity Astrid. In the beginning of the book she mentioned that her mother is none in the least curious about her. I wonder how any 12 year old would feel if he/she knows that his/her mother is none in the least interested in him/her. Pure living hell. Dont think I'd ever want a life like this. But if I were in that position, I dont think I'd be as timid as Astrid.Rather than be a small and weak seedling, I'd be tough.Tough as a rock. Tough and resilient as a big fir tree. Only then can I fight.
A winter's day-
in a deep and dark December
I am alone-
Gazing from my window to the streets below
On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow.
I am a rock, I am an island.
I've built walls,
A fortress deep and mity
That none may penetrate
I have no need of friendship
friendship causes pain
It's laughter and loving I disdain
I am a rock, I am an island
Don't talk of love
but I've heard the word before
It's sleeping in my memory
I won't disturb the slumber of the feelings that have died
If I never loved I never would have cried
I am a rock, I am an island
I have my books
and my poetry to protect me
I am shielded in my armour
Hiding in my room, safe within my womb,
I touch no one and no one touches me.
I am a rock, I am an island
And a rock feels no pain, and an island never cries.
*| 9:01 PM |*
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
WOOTZ...My exams are finally over. FINALLY. I can take a step back and enjoy. I shan't think about my results in the meantime. NOw, it is pure party... I think I should do ok... :) Feeling quite happy now heehee. But quite drained after two papers today...
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*| 2:47 AM |*
Sunday, April 11, 2004
Long time no see. Haven't been blogging recently. I haven't been here even though I have been online. Have been playing online games you see. Exams start tomorrow,and they end on Tuesday. Tuesday will be a relatively long day,with my exams ending officially at 1600hrs. After that I have tuition cos the girl has a test on Wednesday. SUcks. Got tuition straight after exam...So tired after exam. :( I am not that hard up for the money anyway. I dont really need the money cos there's always my kitty to reach into. Amassed a sum of money from working last year...yes and needless to say there is always mom and dad. But I will not ask them for too much if i can help it. Frankly, I wouldnt have bothered to give tuition back then if not for the fact that I *thought* that I will go to USA to study. Now that I am in SIngapore and I am not incurring the extra expense of studying overseas ( it is a lot more to sutdy in the USA as all of us know..) thus I see that it is quite pointless to continue. But it seems that it is impossible to pull out of it. Argh :(
God Bless for my darn exam tmr...
*| 1:45 AM |*
Friday, April 02, 2004
Hey there. Am blogging after being out for half a day. Attended a funeral. The deceased battled with cancer for a good 14 years before succumbing to it. Pretty sad right? I am sure that it was an uphill battle fought fearlessly, courageously, but only to be defeated. Am not in the position to comment on whether it's worthwhile to fight a disease that is deemed as incurable by clinicians. Yes, it is treatable. But it is not curable, meaning that there will always be a chance that it will relapse after a period of remission.
Life is short, and make the best of what you have. Forrest Gump said that life is like a box of chocolates. I'd say, life is like a shooting star. Yes it is beautiful. But the beauty is rather short-lived. Like a shooting star, each one of us spends merely a few decades on earth, and then it is time to say adios. And you fade. There is this Chinese saying which goes, " sheng1 qian1 wo3 shi4 shui2, si3 hou4 shui2 shi4 wo3". To translate it loosely, it literally means " who am i, before birth. who is me, after my death".
Well enough of these morbid stuff. I am starting to study my Spanish, cos I suck at it. I really prefer Japanese to Spanish. I just find that it is very difficult to master Spanish grammar. It all seems to alien to me. But then, it's 2 weeks more to D-Day. I'd study for it now, and hopefully, I can do well and qualify for the double degree program. WHether I choose to take it or not is a separate matter. If I dont even qualify for it, there is nothing else to talk about, am I not right?
Anywya, going to watch tian1 zi3 xun2 long2. Ta ta
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